Late goodbye

Summer was never so lonely. Every summer I used to hang out with my lovely sisters, prankster brothers, adorable and cutest ever pet, mum, dad, and dear friends. Not any more. I am growing up and I chose my path. I have a long way to go but I will have to wave goodbye to some wonderful things that I wished never to end.

When I barely started walking, I found 2 friends Aniket and Kaustubh. We grew up together, literally. Every summer we used to make tents, tree-houses, play hide-n-seek and roam around the streets like we owned them. But we parted ways, never to cross each other again as I moved into completely different part of the town. Before leaving India, I visited the same place where I spent my childhood. Stood in front of that big house, staring and remembering all the good times. I don't know how my two friends were. Last I heard, Kaustubh had lost his father to cancer when he was in the middle of his 12th standard exam. If that wasn't enough, he also lost both legs due to calcium deficiency of some sorts. I was sad. But time was running out and I had to wave goodbye. I don't know when we'll meet. I don't even know if we'll recognize each other for we haven't seen each other for 15 years now. But if we do, I'll experience happiness of the greatest magnitude.

New place brought me new friends. And we started our friendship with a huge fight. And just when we thought we could never get along, we became best friends and wreaked havoc in every part of the colony we set our feet into. But then, after 12 wonderful years Sahil left for Mumbai and I was again left feeling why in the world friends are taken away from me? But then the summers became even more awesome as when a friend sees you after many days, you feel like you are born again. So I enjoyed that change. I still don't know the whereabouts of few of my really great friends and I don't think we'll meet again but boy, did I enjoy those days.

In college, I found new and awesome friends. Paarth was a different kind. Calm and collected but humorous. Subhajeet, a genuine, a dumb genius but again a very very good friend, Nakul too, minus the dumb part and then three beautiful girlfriends. Coffee, Ankita and Swarada. Never did I trusted any girl in my life but then I met them. We fought, we watched stars, moon, movies; I miss all of them, but like every good friend in my life, they were again taken away. Some are busy with their lives, rightly so. Some were so close to me that god decided that's enough and separated us, well, forever it seems. Subhajeet pings me saying he misses me and can't wait for my homecoming. And that reminds me how futile my attempts were to think that I can easily live my dream. Every dream comes at a price. Mine seems to be the costliest one.

I don't know when I'll see them. I don't know if they'll be happy when I see them because they'll be having their own pressures, deadlines, no paid holidays and stuff. 

Should I wave a last goodbye? To Aniket and Kaustubh, my first ever friends? To Sahil? who helped me become the fearless prankster I am now? To Paarth, Subhajeet, Dhande who were sensible friends who knew their limits and forced me to stay within mine? To girls? who listened to me no matter how rude I was and yes, a pathetic friend at times? 

But, then how will I live? I can only thank them all for making me strong when I was weak and bringing me down to reality when I was high. And I wish that god never takes away anyone's friends like he did with me. But maybe when you part ways you understand the value of human bonds. I wish he gives me strength to tell each of them face to face that how much they mean to me and not scribble what I feel in this blog. But the ego...

I don't miss any of you anymore as I have a hope that we'll meet someday and when we do...