A few grievances

Death: The meaning of life changes when you witness death. I read in Harry Potter, 'for a well prepared mind, death is just another adventure'. But what about the unprepared one? Well, it has a severe impact on your mind and you change. You are no longer the lively person that you used to be. You keep wishing that it's just a dream but you have got to learn to live without your friends who are no more. You can't cry because it won't bring them back. You can't share it with anyone either. All you can do is grieve and stay quiet. People think you are acting weird or being super secretive or too busy. Non existent social life is looked down upon and people form their opinions about you. Not that you care. They don't know your story and the hell you go through every single day. You have to smile but it's not what you are thinking. You greet your friends only to remember that the older ones will never be greeted again. 

It's heavy. Sometimes the mind wanders too much and questions the meaning of existence. It all needs to change. Someday it will. Life is too short and the way we live it matters not for us but for the people who we leave behind. So, be good. Give some reasons to be missed when you will be gone. It's the least you can do. 

AMRI: It's disturbing and heartbreaking. 89 patients in ICU and ITU died as the black smoke filled their lungs. Hospital staff fled from the scene leaving behind ailing bodies attached to life support system. Their relatives could only watch in horror as they weren't allowed to go in by the security on site. They'll mourn for days to come. The government will condemn this tragic incident like the way it has been condemning any other event in the country that had claimed lives of few of it's residents. Compensation of 2 lakh rupees will be dished out to console the families affected. Normality will resume in two years until another incident of the similar consequences pops up. Remember Uphaar?

Football: It's a beautiful game. Sadly it's played off the pitch more than it's played on it. The politics, the money involved in turning players heads, the appalling standards of the officials and equally acerbic attitude of fans towards players from the opposition. Only a handful of players play for the crest that they sport on their chest every weekend, others, sadly play to fill their pockets. Fans are impatient too and the media just adds fuel to the fire and at times has more say in the dressing room than the coaches and managers. I love football. But with the way it's being played these days, I might not.

P.S. - Don't feel bad. You aren't that special.