Day 1: Realization

What you wish for is often what you do not truly want. Like I never wanted many things that I was wishing for. I was getting possessive. Possessiveness brings out the evil in you and you slowly forget why you wished it to begin with. You get edgy and you forget how to enjoy life. Every moment passes you by and you live it, physically. Mentally, you are plotting how to posses something that you are very possessive about. I decided, to let it go. Talked with a few sensible people whom I can trust and who are wiser than me. I like to be controlled by someone. Mum always did. I hated her for that but she is the reason why I don't smoke and still have kept my dreams alive. My wife would love it, controlling me. Yeah, I can imagine that. But girl is not everything in your life. Romance doesn't teach you android or complexity of binary search. That was the realization.
Finally watched Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara. Nice movie, wayward, but nice. I would have slapped my fiance if she'd have dropped in on my bachelor getaway. Living the moment is what I learned. "Kyon hai koi aah dabi, shola jo bhadake, bhadakane do" Indeed.
During a game of raquetball today, I mocked Arjun for I was 4-0 up. He went on to to lead me 9-14. I remembered a lesson that was a part of my Marathi subject in 9th standard. It was a lesson in badminton and the protagonist, Prakash padukone was also in the exact situation against his opponent. He said "I focused on every point and made sure that the shuttle doesn't fall down in my court". I focused and I won. The point is, focus is not such a hard thing to do afterall. And when you focus, you win.
Live life large and grand. You will die someday. Make sure you die content and happy. Let's see what tomorrow brings.